28Aug ‘10

If Historical Events had Facebook Statuses

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27Aug ‘10

…I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

10th grade
As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called “best friend”. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

11th grade
The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn’t want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said “thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Senior year
The day before prom she walked to my locker. “My date is sick” she said, “he’s not going to go.” Well, I didn’t have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as “best friends”. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn’t think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said “I had the best time, thanks!” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Graduation Day
A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, “you’re my best friend, thanks” and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

A few years later
Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say “I do” and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn’t see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said “you came!”. She said “thanks” and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love her but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why.

Funeral
Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my “best friend”. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn’t notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don’t want to be just friends, I love him but I’m just too shy, and I don’t know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me!

I wish I did too… I thought to my self, and I cried.

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Cute! (note the shadow) ;P

Cute! (note the shadow) ;P

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Moe Furuya’s Hand Fork and Hand Spoon

Moe Furuya’s Hand Fork and Hand Spoon

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五月天 Mayday - 如煙 Like Smoke

Is there really that kind of forever, forever unchanging
The beauty we’ve once embraced never shattered
Make rapidly passing time unable to run wild on my face
Make the separation of life and death distant

Is there really that kind of tear that can wash away remorse
Transform into a rainstorm falling on a street I can’t return to
Give me one more chance to rewrite the story
To offer the apology I’ve owed him all my life

Is there really that kind of world, where the sky never goes dark
The stars and sun and everything listens to my commands
The moon doesn’t wax and wane, spring isn’t far away
Twigs hold tightly onto their leaves

Is there really that kind of rose that never wither
Forever proud and perfect, forever uncompromising
Why does life turn out to be like a scrap of paper
Not like a flower petal that was once splendorous

Is there really that kind of bookmark that can stop on that day
At that most innocent, smiling face and that most beautiful year
A backpack filled with cakes and sodas
Eyes devoid of suspicion and wrong-doing, let us be outlaws

Is there really that kind of poem that doesn’t end
Youth forever halted in our own time
All the boys and girls have guitars and dancing shoes
Laughing and forgetting life’s suffering, just knowing its sweetness

Is there really that kind of tomorrow that lets me live all over again
To once again experience the yesterday I squandered
Whether surviving or living, I won’t waste a moment
Won’t let this story be so filled with regrets

I sit before the bed watching my fingertips already like smoke

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